After today’s conversation with Lana, I still have to learn
my lesson. I have yet to understand and fully grasp the concept of “Me”. One
would think that I am fully aware with the amount I talk about myself, but in
all honesty almost all things come before me. This month would be easy to
excuse. And I’m pretty sure deep down I did. I hit 50 pounds on month six and
celebrate. The celebration is not the problem it is the length of the
celebration that killed me. I allowed myself to celebrate all month without
getting back to the grind.
But the excuses are enough, and now it’s time for me to own
my choices. I choose my choice. This month there was no weight loss, and only a
1 inch difference in my measurements. That may be OK if I wasn’t full of excuses
for my choices. I need to own it. I also need to realize that my priority needs
to be me. Not in a selfish way, but in a believing in myself way.
I should not expect that my life change overnight, but it’s
hard to think that it’s taking longer than seven months. But if you think about
it, my forgetting about “me” has been for 23 years. So reversing that in seven
months would be completely unexpected. In so many ways my life is changing, but
in a few major ways I still have a lot of work to do, inside and out.
I would have never guessed that as my body changed my life
would change drastically. I hope that I have not disappointed you or even discouraged
you with my lack of weight loss this month. I think the most important thing to
understand is that this was almost expected at some point in time. Press on
toward the prize. It’s a marathon not a sprint.
One Less Day
That's my girl!! Remember the past is past and we focus on the future. This is a lifestyle change FOREVER! You will get there as long as you remember its a marathon not a sprint. Can't change yesterday but you can definitely do something about tomorrow. Put yourself FIRST!!
ReplyDeleteAnd to think of the wisdom you are gaining at only 23. A lot easier to change your way of thinking now instead of waiting until..let's say 39! :) These words come out a lot but you truly are an inspiration! Go get selfish....you are by far worth it!
ReplyDeleteThis is a good lesson to learn: it takes years to get where we are, and even though we want it to change overnight it just can't! We're all still proud of you for how far you've come!
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